and its time to spill my thoughts.
i have been really tired. what's new right? i find it amazing how i managed to always get up on time and go to places. some times i dont even have to wait for my alarm to ring and im awake. on other occasions, i can just stay awake till the morning and get the day going without rambling about how tired i am. this is very peculiar. I eyes weigh a tonne but i am just so distracted to sleep. yes, distracted is the word.
recently i've tried to off my phone and sleep. it kind of work a little, but ended up waking at dawn instead of the speculated timing.
i think im swamped.
singlehood: a process where you feel weird cause you kind of feel that you're all alone but also not at the same time. you'll have suitors doing things for you, you'll have friends to be there for you. nevertheless, family to support you and talk to you about it. telling you things might be for the better. Singlehood makes me realize alot of things. but singlehood makes you realize what does loneliness means.
of course, not lonely in the sense that theres no one to hang out with, no entertainment, no love. but lonely in the sense that... it makes you grow. that lonesome feeling is, amazing in a way it makes you want to love yourself more.. to work out, to read, really just to simply love yourself. but it also eats you up some times, make you feel nauseated that you might never find love anymore.. this loneliness is insane.
i use to rely alot on my boyfriend, and soon i got so use to it and felt that i was spoilt. he'll pick me up, he'll give in, listens to me, fight with me(and lets me win).. sweep my hair to the side with my barf, and so much more... (goes to show he's a good catch ladies)
i am lonely now. so what?
i have been really tired. what's new right? i find it amazing how i managed to always get up on time and go to places. some times i dont even have to wait for my alarm to ring and im awake. on other occasions, i can just stay awake till the morning and get the day going without rambling about how tired i am. this is very peculiar. I eyes weigh a tonne but i am just so distracted to sleep. yes, distracted is the word.
recently i've tried to off my phone and sleep. it kind of work a little, but ended up waking at dawn instead of the speculated timing.
i think im swamped.
singlehood: a process where you feel weird cause you kind of feel that you're all alone but also not at the same time. you'll have suitors doing things for you, you'll have friends to be there for you. nevertheless, family to support you and talk to you about it. telling you things might be for the better. Singlehood makes me realize alot of things. but singlehood makes you realize what does loneliness means.
of course, not lonely in the sense that theres no one to hang out with, no entertainment, no love. but lonely in the sense that... it makes you grow. that lonesome feeling is, amazing in a way it makes you want to love yourself more.. to work out, to read, really just to simply love yourself. but it also eats you up some times, make you feel nauseated that you might never find love anymore.. this loneliness is insane.
i use to rely alot on my boyfriend, and soon i got so use to it and felt that i was spoilt. he'll pick me up, he'll give in, listens to me, fight with me(and lets me win).. sweep my hair to the side with my barf, and so much more... (goes to show he's a good catch ladies)
i am lonely now. so what?
"Avere Fede"
it means, have faith.
it means, have faith.
jess.
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