3 more days to christmas!

so it's been awhile. i've been busy doing sand craft with the kids and they're getting more and more adorable.. maybe it's a good idea that im teaching little humans because i used to really hate them.. you know. they annoy me. i'll get so frustrated whenever i hear cries and wailing... and i'll feel pissed for quite awhile cause all that will resound in my head for... hours! but now, im trying to accept that they're just needing something and that's the only way they can communicate.. now i understand... after so long.. i thought they're just plain noisy.

i need to understand things to not get annoyed. its a need, not a want.

to be able accept and understand, i need time. and time doesn't seem to be bothered by it. it just runs by itself... who doesnt give a hoot about whoever that needs it. but really, if im time, i wouldnt care less either.

"it's their problem", i'll say to myself and move for the rest that can keep up.

im trying to be the rest, keeping up.

this year, this year.. before it really really end.. i'll say it's like fireworks. why? it's colorful, amazing, wonderful, breathtaking.. but it's also noisy, unexpected and out of control. nonetheless, another year is going to swing by again and a brand new year is pacing its way up to us.. we should really embrace what's left in 2010.

so all my dear friends, lets embrace. and get our ass off to another year, with hopes that are higher then high, and bravery that are wilder than wild.

i believe it'll be a better year.

you guys know i love christmas. i really do. it's such a lovely day where sparkles and shimmers and lights and colors are spilling everywhere on the streets.. its so heart warming and its 6days bfore the year end.. it makes me slow down and recollect... in a good way. No matter how lousy i feel... the fact that Chistmas is coming makes me feel all better.

and i believe everything will get better. i dont care, it will.

i've discover so much about my friends.. the good the bad the unwanted the hidden nasty the beauty in the ugly.. so much, so much more...

and... this Christmas, im proud to say that;

i have grown a little bit more.

and it's the best Christmas gift I've ever receive from myself.

Have a well-loved Christmas my friends, you guys are so, so so awesome. if im a thousand hand buddha, i'll raise all my thumbs up for yall :)

love from all of me,
jess.