Eating leftover cheeseburger from yesterday's lunch

Hi, its been so so long since i last came to visit and jolt my thoughts down. I miss this space so much.

Crazy work life eating me up, which explains why the lack of sleep and the insane, crazy meal time. Today i chose to leave my work aside and come home a little earlier, and decided to want to cook for myself when im home.

And when im home, I saw my yesterday's lunch; cheeseburger sitting in the fridge.  i stare at it for a long time and decided to f*** the cooking and eat crappy leftover food cause im so tired.

Its been.... well, close to 5 months since i was left alone with a broken heart. Time really really flies, really. I look back all the time, to all the relationships that i had, the people who loves me and betrayed me.. all so endearing. And how turning our back against each other is allowed so quickly, so amazingly capable. Us all.

Fighting for someone you love seems hard now, because you will never know if its true anymore. And as you grow older, things gets so complicating, and love is no longer pure. But there's still good people around, and thank god for the good people in life otherwise i could have went out of my sane mind to do insane stuff.

Engagement got called off, divorce get filed. Send me a prayer, tell me why oh why should i be with someone?

Is your love, your boy, your girl, true to you? I dont think so. Because I have seen so much, too much. And oh you wouldnt wanna know what.

People move on, when they bump onto a wall. people no longer think of ways to create a door on that wall anymore.

#disappointment

jess.