"the less you know, the less is there to worry about.
But with knowledge comes respect, curiosity and excitement.
Because you know things are scary,
and you're still alive"
Perhaps that's why i'm always worrying. To have things to worry about actually beats nothing to worry at all. It means that we are growing, and i like that. It doesnt always have to be worrying about big things, but rather, small and probably insignificant to people that doesnt find it a bother. for example, right now im worrying if my hair will turn into a haystack when i wake up because its so freaking dry after i dyed it. and if it does, i'll google or seek opinions to make better of my hair, and gained more knowledge about having better control of my hair. If i dont worry about it, it will probably be forsaken and by then i might have hated myself cause my hair can never seem to be tamed.
don't blame the problem, blame yourself. if you fuck care things, you'll never understand what went wrong.
I like growing up. Of course, i envy infant and babies because they seem so worry-free. but we often overlook the fact that they're helpless and clueless in every single thing. I don't like that.
I want to be self-sustainable.
some times, when my world is too much and me being a nature of worrying about almost every single thing all the time, I kinda breakdown. A realization of bottling things to myself scares me a little. (you know the 'starting to worry i'll be the outliers of the society and all will get me nervous all over again) But i'm glad there's always people to catch my back whenever I get teary.
I want to be strong, but often, i pretend that i am and without noticing, my pretentious self wears off and what was left is just an ordinary human that needs comfort and love.
we are all not superman afterall, even though we want to. But we'll always try to be someone else's superman because they have been ours when we falter.
and i guess, thats what i've always been doing.
don't blame the problem, blame yourself. if you fuck care things, you'll never understand what went wrong.
I like growing up. Of course, i envy infant and babies because they seem so worry-free. but we often overlook the fact that they're helpless and clueless in every single thing. I don't like that.
I want to be self-sustainable.
some times, when my world is too much and me being a nature of worrying about almost every single thing all the time, I kinda breakdown. A realization of bottling things to myself scares me a little. (you know the 'starting to worry i'll be the outliers of the society and all will get me nervous all over again) But i'm glad there's always people to catch my back whenever I get teary.
I want to be strong, but often, i pretend that i am and without noticing, my pretentious self wears off and what was left is just an ordinary human that needs comfort and love.
we are all not superman afterall, even though we want to. But we'll always try to be someone else's superman because they have been ours when we falter.
and i guess, thats what i've always been doing.
aren't we all glad that we're born healthy humans? there's so much about us that im always intrigued about, always.
jess.
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