scared.
i am scared. i dont know what is happening. i think i will never find someone that truly understands me. it is as if you think you know, assume that it is, and make believe so the world will feel so much better to live in with the fact that you aren't alone, and there's this someone right there to understand you and stood by you when all else fails.
why is it so difficult. the more relationship i have, the more alone i feel. i always believe that we are all made in pairs. but where is mine. just where the hell is mine? its infuriating to keep trying and trying and trying.. because we all get emotionally hurt and eventually we all get tired.
and that's where we give up.
i really, really want to leave. i did tell myself that i wont get myself into a relationship, and yet i am doing this. the fact is, i want to fall in love, stay in love, and be love. i want to give love, accept the sweetest, and have that one guy, just that one guy to look me in the eye and see me and only me.
apparently, guys are all fucking greedy.
no. we all are. and this is just so, so sad to realize.
jess.
why is it so difficult. the more relationship i have, the more alone i feel. i always believe that we are all made in pairs. but where is mine. just where the hell is mine? its infuriating to keep trying and trying and trying.. because we all get emotionally hurt and eventually we all get tired.
and that's where we give up.
i really, really want to leave. i did tell myself that i wont get myself into a relationship, and yet i am doing this. the fact is, i want to fall in love, stay in love, and be love. i want to give love, accept the sweetest, and have that one guy, just that one guy to look me in the eye and see me and only me.
apparently, guys are all fucking greedy.
no. we all are. and this is just so, so sad to realize.
jess.
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