sometimes.

you know i get a little lost some times.
and i didnt know im lost.
so i worked on that really hard, without knowing my mistake.

i went all out. i gave it my all.
and when i realized i was all along lost,
i froze.

because despite being lost, i enjoyed those moments.
the moments that it gave. the laughters, the care, the love, the warmth.
i was lost in a place where i thought i could seek comfort in.

so when someone shook me up, and slapped me in the face,
telling me that i was wrong,
i rebutted. i didnt want to believe. and i hated reality.

but time, was what it took to make me realize,
that when you're lost, you are lost.
its all a dream. a dream that is slowly spreading, fading into air.
its empty and hollow and scary at times.

cause i've put in so much, that i didnt want to get out of it.
yes, i chose not to.

nevertheless, eventually i have to.

so now, i've turned my head, walked back to where i came from.
and i'll never look back, even though its tempting me, calling out to me.
shouting my name even.
but never.

cause it hurts too much.
and i'm not ready to handle it all over again.

jess.